+ + Tuesday, August 21, 2007
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In This LIfe, TherE IS NOtiNG BetTEr Than HAVINg SoMTinG to LOoK FoRWaRd to. I DefINITeLY FOUnd A PurPOSe Now... BEFOre I WaS LivInG LIFe day By Day, wishing tAt ToDAy WAs BEttEr Than YEsTErDAy NAd TOmORo WiLL B GreaTer Than ToDay. BUt NOw.... I do NOT HAV To HOPE... I wilL makE MY FUtuRe Days BEttEr. MakINg Amends whEre I can. I conTroL mY FuTURe DaYS Now.
AND So The TinGs ThaT I lOOK FoRwARd To is TO B BAck In SpORe is to spENd A DaY In wiT KHai. e LAst time I saw her was BeFOre ValEntinE Day. I scReW Up My valEntinE LAST YeaR. Now WHen I get BAck SpORe i Wana make UP FoR tat screw up... wAahhaha Bt BEfORe Tat... there is somting else i shud look forward to..... tat is being slapped by her. She didnt get chance to do it when we broke up.. So khai here is ur chance to hav ur slap on my face!!! BRiNG IT ON man!!!!
InSOMNIa!!! MAnY sLEePLEss NIGhTs.. I dO NoT know for sure WhY... But my speculation is Tat I tiNK Too MUch.... too mUCh OF Khai... TnKIn Wat cud b different, why did e break up happen.. n aso impatiently waiting to come bck spore.....!! URgH.. n of COZ... stressed up wit e expensive Telecom service in brunEI!! URGH.... DesPITe Having so manY TinGS On MY MInd Nw, I canNOt LEt it afFEcT anYtinG BEtwEEN Me N Khai. We R FrENs nw.. N so it shall be... UnTIl she is ready to accePT me.. I will not!! Ask Her to b wit me ever... It will naturally happen... Or so i hope it will... BUt iF it turn out otherwise.. i have noting to regret. Coz... atleast i noe i hav tried... n so... GOODBYE!!
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x__ I s K h A i R y __x
x 3:42 AM x
+ + Monday, August 13, 2007
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Lost in this perplexing life tat is full of CHoices.. DIFFICULT choices.
ITs a sign.. Khai, having u in my life is a sign. A sign for me to make tings rite again. Definitely i must notscrew up tis chance... THe chance to gain ur trust again. BUt timing can never be worse...
i m attached. HAix... Wat shud i do? SHud i follow my heart? OR tink wit my brain?? I prefer to follow my heart. at the end of the journey i m supposed tob happy. n tat can onli b achieved if u r happy wit wat u r doin.. n so u need to follow my heart. N so my heart says.... "let nurul GO.."
N so, tis decision will onli hurt another inoccent heart. AGain n again... Haix... Can i promise tat tis will b e last heart tats gona b broken by me?? yes... if e last heart i m gona hold is khai's.... NIwae its better tat i stop pretending to b wit her when i stil tink of khai.
Phew!! saying has always been easier than executing the action.. nw i m gona b upfornt n xplain to nurul everiting... Hope i m tactful enuf to do it... TAts all
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x__ I s K h A i R y __x
x 1:24 AM x
+ + Thursday, August 09, 2007
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After a year plus since we broke up, I gathered all e courage i have to sms her. And it turned out unexpectedly. SHe wasnt angry wit me animore.
A day after we tok on e fon... Miss those times when we can tok for hours.. tok about almost aniting under the sky. THe conversation juz bring back fond memories when i was her.... thE feelin is juz undescribable... I miss u khai... Haix... IF onli tings cud b different... if Onli.. u N I... LIght up e flame again.... IF onli........ Haix... BUT!!!
But now, Alot have changed. Im currently attached. IT have been 1 year plus since i hav been together wit her. She mite nt b e best ting tat has happen to me, bt still we made e commitment.. I cant let her go.... i promised to change for e better.... Gosh.!!! Wat m i to do??
WEll.. e answer is quite clear.... I hav to treasure tis relationship i hav... I must nt let it go.... Bout me n khai.... Hmmmm... Mayb its juz nt meant to be??? mayb u r bck in my life to test e strength of my character??? mayb... Hmmm MEMORIES... Khai... U r juz my memories.. A memory Of A beautiful chapter of my life... Haix...... N tat chapter has ended...... HAix..........
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x__ I s K h A i R y __x
x 10:21 PM x
+ + Saturday, June 10, 2006
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Many months have past.... more then a year since we noe eachother.. bt nt animore... she gone.... with me alone..... well... i asked for it... no doubt its my fault tat i two timed her... bt she is the one i luved.... seriusly.... after 4 mnths... i still tink of her... somtimes tears juz wont stop falling...
everidae of my life... i never stop hoping.. .tat i wil meet her again.... until tis moment.... even if i noe she is attached to indra... well she seems happy wit him.... atleast her life is picking up... bt nt me.... i dunno y................................... is the guilt tat i m supposed to stay wit for a long long long long time???
how i wish tings could b different... hw i wish tings were nt tat complicated.... hw i wish tat she was here.... missing her hugs n kisses.. her touches... her cuteness..... her everiting....... bt hope i have for us tat one dae we will b together again....
There is a saying.. if u luv someone.... u hav to let it go. n if it comes back... its urs to kip.. bt if it doesnt... it wasnt love to be....
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x__ I s K h A i R y __x
x 7:48 PM x
+ + Saturday, May 14, 2005
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WZzUp.. JuZ WaNa saE A Few ThINgs N ChIaoZ Aledi.. Bz Lah dei!!!! ERm... Went Out 4 a Movie... KINGDoM OF HeavEn! Damn GoOd ShOW!!! ALLAHU AKBAR!!! ALLAHU AKBAR!! HEHEHEHe!!! WE WoN!!! Org islam menang!!! YEy!!! O0oPs.... sOri EMo siKIt..
Aniwae to me rite... i tink e show gt a meaning behind it.. we all noe tat e war for taT Jerusalem is still Going on nw... well... in mY Opinion rite.. tat orlando bloom character is e personification of an ideal government... wat tat place reali need..... i mean... its not bout dividing e land.. its nt bout hw much land palestine gets.. or hw much land israel get to keep.. its Bout living together...!!! Its bout preserving e people tat leave on tat piece of land... wats wrong wit that man!!!! AMIN!!!
HAix.... sori for blabbering nonsense... hehehehe!! hmMm watch tat show wit khai!! my one n onli... yey.... it was great..!! hmmMmM.. .I mean.. juz e two of us... e whole dae... wow!!! N ya.. we played pool too.... Guez wat??! i won~!!!!! yey!!!!! well.. bt khai.. u r improving lah my dear... can make it.. .so far u r e next potentially great lady player... hmmmm..
Then we makan kat FOoD COurt kat causewae... hehehehe!! i spilled some chilli on her body.. BT wasnt intentionally though... YIKEs!! Hmmm.. then i sent her home.. duk2 bawah blk jap... hmmmm... nt too bad ar... HEHEHE~ somEOne AdMIts Tat i m HEr HUBBY!!!! YEY!!!! weee~ N she my princess!!! my one n oNLie... *MuaCkZ* LUV U!!!! WEE~
O0o0ops!!! i forgot tat college day was todaE.... HEHEHE!! gueZ i forgot bOut it huh?! wel.... i taut i did forget.. hehehehehehehehehehe~
ChIAoz!!
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x__ I s K h A i R y __x
x 10:09 PM x
+ + Friday, May 06, 2005
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HEy GuEz.... I M GeTTiN TirEd To UpDate My BlOG... wit Sch werk n Stuf... ANiwae ya.. .here is another entry after quite somtime.... btw YEsterday got tis SpROts heat tingy... I siGn up for tug of war... Wit e guys from my class... 04s06.. Damn!!!!! we were e onli one tat turn up!!!
yg lain smua tk dtang..Wahahah/a~ thEn WE JoIN Both UlTimate frisbee.. YEY~!
Guez wat?! i was in e same team s KHAI!!! wahahaha tk sangka seh... time was a swell.. onli a few chinese guys yg mepek.... Wahahahaa~ tapi in e end.. .we all lost all games..... heheheh~
whereas Hadi n HAziq's team had a diffferent luck.. they woN aLL games!!! siak ar... ALl e Best ar guys...
then when it come to tug of war...
hehehe~ shal i nt tok bout it????
maLu sia.....
Hmmm... tats all lar tat i can write bout... Tata~
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x__ I s K h A i R y __x
x 6:43 PM x
+ + Friday, April 29, 2005
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TIRInG WEEK....... To Be FoLLoWEd BY.... LOnG WEeKeNDs... Or So I thought.... BT!! damn jam packed wit werk!! argh...!!!!! BUt Wat seeM To B Diff?? I HAv BeeN GoIn ThRoUGh Tis HAvent I???
WELL.. e Week was Great.. sPent a LOt OF time LAufin in ClAss WIt e GuYs... HEHEHe! N HADI lah menjadi mangsa nyer... vICtiM Of Our JoKEs.... AhAkz!! HEhEHE.. LAuFiNG Wit U GuyS ReaLi MAke Life seem...... LiveLier I GueS???
HEHEHe~ I DunNO Tis GoNA Stop... Bt My Class Guys.. they are into e werk kiwek... Sikit2 nanti kiwek.... sikit kiwek...!! kau... guez wher it originated frm?? hehehe... oNe Dae.. HAziQ Saw A ROUNd LADy FaCE.....(ShALL I SAe HU??? Hmmm..) ImmEDiaTe Reaction was... "KIWEK!!!!" Wahahahahahhahaha!!! MEpEk seh... thenfrm tat dae onwards.. .Sikit2 kiwek!! AHakz!!! MEpEk KAn???
Hmm... KHAi... wat else... oh... YA! She will B GoiN SoME Geog TrIp Or SoMtiNg...kAT KL... Hmm.. GoNa Miss HEr FoR 5 daYS.... HehEheHE... JGn LUpa BAwaK HAdiah Frm Ther HUh?! I NAk BUBBLE GUm!!!!!! YUp YuP! LOts N LOts OF Them....!!!!! HEHehee~ SHe Gona EnjOY herself.. i know she wil... n i wan her to...
WeLL.. Tis weEK Is Over.. .NEx WeeK Is COmIng.. A Level Getting nearer.. .reality check!!! WE Hav effectively... Less than 6 months...... YEsh Ar!!!!!!! Tk SabAr to get it over n done wit!!!! THen enjoy grad nite....... Then enjoy life... b4 goin 4 NS.... HEHEHEHe~ Da LAmA tk gi ClUBBIn.. mayb afTer tat aku Gi CLuBBing.. Care to jOIn NIWan????? TAta~ HAHA
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x 3:19 PM x
